papa - ambivalence

papa,
there are so many things i like and respect from you, and also things that i dislike and do not expect from you.
i might not be mature enough, you might say, but this is definitely not a thought of an immature young boy anymore. it's been 10 years back and i've been thinking and feeling about this a great deal, with doubts and also with shocks.
thinking about you is always an inevitably ambivalent experience for me.
so much love for your sacrifice and patience.
and so much.. the so-called "disturbance" i felt..
there're always generation-gaps, but i believe we are somewhat very different. kind of different worlds. isnt it because of years we are apart from each other? or isnt it because of the beginning and the nature of things?
hmmz, when u're away at sea, i always have two feelings with me: hoping u're be back soon to gather with mom and i in a cosy, happy dinner, and also another thought: the inevitable coming "disturbance" feeling when u're around.
$ is so important, but not the most important (i always hope i'll be able to study and work as hard as u could to support our family and my own future family..) however i do care more for the feelings.
this is weird and and funny when i think about your family back-ground and "my family back-ground". so much different from the beginning but how funny and contradictory our response to present life turned out to be. hope that i can clarify with u this little thing some time.. it's just about differences.
haha... sometimes i wished i were Clark Kent and you were that superman's father. how ideal it would be!
wish u all the best, my papa.
with love,
son.

nha` minh`, nhin ki~ cung xinh xinh

lingering around

@Angkor: lingering around & mo mang`
..
humz, sao may voi tao hay gap may chuyen giong giong nhau nhi? dzui buon cung giong nhau.. ho* ho*,te`n ten iu roi chang? ;)) :))
hic, anyway, 2 thang chan doi ma gap nhau thi` dung la "hic, buon oi ta xin chao mi.."
..
ah`, tao dang xem lai may hinh Angkor na`. chac post len, lau lau nhin lai thay cung dzui..
kho* kho*, cuoi nam nhin lai, thay minh cung lam duoc 1 so chuyen.. dda'ng la`m. mac du ket wa ko cai nao nhu cai nao.
hehe, nen viec wai gi fai buon may` nho*? kha`kha`, nam moi con` nhieu thu tung bung lam..
P.S. Ah`m hen tot nghiep xong thang tien^' India nha :D

cuoi nam nang^ ly chuc suc khoe nao`. yo, babies, 100%

jonnie walker, keep walking

jonnie walker, juz keep walking, hum :/

13. Nho*' la.i ti`nh yeu^

"... Tren duong di chot nho lai cac cuoc ti`nh. Cam thay tinh yeu dep nhat la hai nguoi bau ban voi nhau.
Khong can rang buoc, khong can vo`ng vo, khong can so huu, khong can khat vong khai thac duoc y nghia gi` tu ba.n ti`nh. Do la thu da xac dinh phai hut hang. Nhung phai la hai chu'ng ta duoc xep ca.nh nhau, ddu*'ng ngam cai nhan gian vang ve nay`.
Co' hai can phong doc lap, moi nguoi deu lam viec trong pho`ng rieng.
Cu`ng di an toi^' ngoai tiem.
Luc di dao co rat nhieu chuyen dde^? no'i.
Lu'c om^ nhau, thay duoc an toan.
Khong xam pham tu do cua nhau. Khong so anh van lien lac voi ban gai' cu~.
Khong ba`y to? tinh cam cho nhau. Bay to la tim` lay su thay ddoi^?.
Rat binh di. Rat quen thuoc. Duong nhu mui` cua anh chi'nh la` mui` tren co* the^? ba.n.
Bat luan o dau va` khi nao` deu can phai giu~ cho nhau mot khoang ca'ch.
Co' the^? bo? ddi bat cu*' lu'c nao`.
Khi muon yen tinh, du` anh o ben ca.nh cung nhu dang o mot minh`.
Co mot phong cach song^' rieng, bao gom ca quan ao, dia nhac, nuoc hoa, thuc an...
Khong qua' nho*' nhung nhau, nhu*ng khi met moi van biet^' anh la` nha`.
Chu'ng ta rat de^~ ddu.ng nhau, boi deu la` nhung nguoi i'ch ki? hoac ngu ngo^'c. Bo.n ho. yeu nhung nguoi kha'c chi de chung minh nguoi khac cung~ yeu ho. Hoac dda~ to'm duoc trong tay, tiec khong no~ buong, mai~ cho dden khi vat nam trong tay dda~ chet di.
Tinh cam chi'n muoi can^` mat thoi gian cho ket tra'i. Nhung chu'ng ta ddeu mat kien nhan. Ai co 'the mat muoi nam cho ddo*.i mot nguoi bo di phuong xa? Ai co the sau muoi nam tha phuong van quay ve tim la.i nguoi xua cu~. Co' nhung tinh` yeu do qua' sot^' sang(' muon dda.t duoc danh lo*.i, khong co' cach' dduoc chung minh, the^' nen^ cung~ khong^ thanh`..."
(Dda?o tuong vi - An ni bao? boi^')

Ca'i dde.p cua hiem^? nguy

"... Nhung co nhung nguoi kha'c, ho song trong thanh pho, co' cai' duoc goi la giai tang xa hoi va nghe nghiep cao sang. Nhung cuoc song cua rat nhieu nguoi tro nen^ vo^ vi., bi. ha.n che^' do qua' chuyen sau^. Ho. phu.c tu`ng boi chi'nh du.c vo.ng va lo`ng tham mu` qua'ng cua? chi'nh ho. Ra suc lay hu* danh va vat chat de chung minh, va boi^` lap^' nhung tro^'ng ro^~ng cua minh. Ho. ne'm nhieu tien vao tiec tu`ng va` qua'n bar, ti`m kiem lac thu' trong giai tri' thuong ma.i. Ho. tra'nh ne' phai suy nghi va noi co^ ddo*n. Khong bao gio tim kiem phuong huong thuc su cua mi`nh.
... Ho. dda'nh mat di cai goi la ca'i dde.p cua hiem^? nguy.
Ca'i dde.p cua hiem nguy, ddi.nh ra mot da.ng phuong thuc theo dduo^?i hu* vo^. Ddo' la thu cam xuc khong lien quan dden ket cuc. Khong ngung ddi. Vua ddi, vua de cai dep va thoi gian thoi^? ra tu linh hon^`. Duong nhu ddang ddi trong gio'. Biet ro khong dat duoc gi nhung lo`ng van vui suong...
Nhieu khi, mot nguoi lua cho.n ra di, khong phai vi` du.c vo.ng, cung khong phai vi` bi. quye^'n ru~. Chi don gian boi nghe thay tieng long` cua mi`nh.
De ton tro.ng cuoc song am^ thanh trong no^.i tam^ cua chinh minh, chu'ng ta tung phai tra nhung cai' gia' qua' lo*'n..."
(Ddao? tuong vi - An ni bao? boi^', cua be' Huyen cho muon, cam on em)

espresso

another night.
i cannot wait.

BL. Charming, dreaming, daring and unpredictable.

ti`m tre? la.c fa't wa` (final version)

Saigon

ta`u thuy a`? trong dep dep..

cong^?

ba'nh tra'ng

nha` tro. bi`nh dan^

la.i cai' tau` do'

cai' nay` moi go.i la` he?m chu

religions

trang tri' noel, xinh xinh

chang co gi dac biet, nhung minh thich ruong^.

no' nua~ ne`, cai' tau`

be'o

cu'n BL

religions

cu'n BL, con nao` con nay^' nho? xiu', hien kho^. Ko co' con nao` to ho*n 2 cuc. ga.ch. Ket luan: khi' hau la.nh, cu'n khong lo*'n noi^? va cu*.c hie^`n. Co le nguoi cung vay.

Nha` tho*` tro`n, doi dien cai' nha` sach' va` gan cai buu dien - an tuong dau tien o BL.

Khong gian ben trong de.p wa', nha` tho*` thu 2 ma` minh` thay thuc su thi'ch sau nha` tho*` Phu Cam cua Hue... yo yo

God

Ghe^' ngoi thiet ke cuc am^'

Jesus Christ

Ru't cu.c hoi? ra la` cua Ngo^ Viet Thu. thiet ke. No wonder.. Moi nguoi cu`ng quyen go'p va`go'p cong xay dung.. Yoo, cong trinh mang ti'nh cong dong! :9 Tuyet that.

warm entrance

murals

the story

crucified

cu'n BL, dda~ no'i ma`, khong the^? nao` to wa' 2 cu.c ga.ch. Xieng!!

V

facade

oh, me

ha`ng ra`o

La^m Do^`ng

Cafe' de thuong khiep. Tiec la chua duoc uong :|

Cay^ gi` nghe ddon^` tho*m lam ma` ko the nho ten^ (i.e. moi chi duoc thay, chua duoc ngui?). Co' 2 mau` trang va` ti'm. Hi`nh nhu hoa ban dau co' mau` trang roi chuyen sang ti'm... thi fai? (fai ko? hay nguoc lai?)). Va` cung~ nghe ddon^` la`hoa chuyen mau` nhanh lam, ko de y', chop mat mot cai dda~ tu trang chuyen tha`nh ti'm mat roi. Hmmz, to` mo`, to` mo`..

du'ng la nuoc khong chay? ma` (buoi chieu anh' sa'ng lam` sao ma` ddoi^? ben duoc). Trong wa'!

people, carrying stones

cau^` dzui

voi

nha` chu' nuo^i voi

tam(' nang('

mi`nh dda~ ddi wa day^, ten` ten..

"...khi? con ga'i..."

for ca' sau^' chui a` -.@ ?

ru`a

nothing - nothingness

qua? cua? hoa sim ti'm

oh, me, yeah

Dambri. Wasn't shot by me.

de^, keu^ nghe tieng de thuong phet^'

hoa da~ quy` (chac nho du'ng roi)

before sunset. thay^' co` bay truoc do', nhung chang ki.p dung lai ma` chu.p.. chua khi nao` thay co` bay gan va` dde.p nhu the. ddu'ng la` dan^ TP.. nha` we^ @@

xap xap BL - ngon.

ta`u hu~ dda' BL - cu~ng ngon. Tra` thi` tho*m choa'ng va'ng @@. Hic. Co`n tho*m hon ca? tra` Quoc Thai' ma` minh` mua. Grrrr..

Tra(ng luoi liem. Ve TP cung thay the. Ho'a ra trang o ddau cung giong nhau.

ba^ng quo*

Eiffel of BL

Nha` tro. - Pathe'on Temple

guong

gac.h ha.t ddau^.

ho^` Do^`ng Nai (???), watever, I've always loved lakes.

sea-liner

me. la`m ca'

y I was here

meo` BL. cung~ ko the^? nao` lo*'n hon 2 cu.c ga.ch. Xieng!

la.i meo`

nguoi dde.p ba'n xi mang(. I love absent-minded eyes @@

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