I am confused

I am confused.
You are definitely one of my "lost cfs". There's no doubt about that. To me, you are so much so alike my other two cfs back home, whom I always consider indispensable parts of my life.
But..
I can't help questioning these. I've got a feeling that I have been into an uneasy situation, no different than I myself pushing someone into some days ago.
Why is this world so sophisticated again? Or am I so? Or is it the feeling thatz deceiving me? Hmmz, I hope it is :[.
I hope I won't need to do it..
Anyway, I think there are things which never change, and I do believe true friends remain true friends.
TTD.
P.S. I think I need to learn from anatta and also CF again. I understand how strong and also how weak sometimes they are. But in all cases they always overcome their imbalance in the end.. I just really want two words for these last days of the years, "binh yen". I hope that we shall all have them. Happy new year, my beloved friends :].
P.S.P.S. I appear to talk too little to many good friends of mine here (guess that they all see me in "silent mode" all the time), but that doesn't mean I do not wanna talk or I'm arrogant or anything..
Anyway, an apology is necessary my dears. I'm sorry. Maybe all those moments, I were also confused :}